BS’D
Emuna, our loyalty, to Hashem is tested when difficulty arises. When challenges occur we are faced with the questions: ‘Do I believe Hashem loves me now?’ and ‘Can I see the goodness here?’
During a test our power of reasoning decreases and our emotions begin to swell with negativity. Our Chassidic Masters call this katnut d’mochin (a shrinking of our intellect) as our mind takes back seat to the overflow of emotions. Here we experience tremendous smallness, a loss of control and extremely vulnerable to hurt. The question posted now on a huge banner of lights once again is: “Do you think I (Hashem) love you now?”
The key thing to remember while enduring a test of faithfulness and loyalty (a test of emuna) is that Hashem is lifting us up and empowering our soul to a greater level of G-dliness. Hidden in the word Nisayon is the word Nes which means a flag – an honorary note of distinction which one earns due to facing a nisayon.
An Adam Gadol, a great man (or woman) is in the works while enduring a challenge. Let’s strengthen our emuna by remembering the question and memorizing the answer.