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Today’s Daily Dose of Emuna is dedicated to the complete healing and good news report for Chaya bat Baya. She is going in for testing today and will find out in 10 days where her health is standing after her treatments. B’H may the doctors see nothing and find nothing. Please daven for her for the next 10+ days amongst all of Klal Yisrael who are sick and suffering – may everyone merit a refuah shleimah b’karov, b’rachamim, Amen.
Divine providence is part of every activity in life; including how well we sleep. I may put my head down to rest with the hope to calm my spirits when suddenly…. v’rum v’rum someone nearby has just decided to turn on their lawn mower!! Just fifteen minutes of menuchat hanefesh (inner peace) can turn into fifteen minutes of asking, “Why now… why do it now?!”
Why is it that the neighbors upstairs (for those who live in apartment buildings) decide to move their furniture around 11:00 pm when I am trying to sleep? It sounds no less than the ceiling caving in. Why does the neighbor need to drill a hole in the wall and a ‘hole in my head’ when I am trying to rest after such a long tiring day? Oy, is this a test of patience?!
Maybe it’s not the neighbor. Maybe I just toss and turn and can’t sleep at night while distressing thoughts take charge of my mind and heart. How will I function tomorrow with a smile?
My answer lies in internalizing the fact that this is hashgacha pratis, a result brought about directly through Divine intervention. What good will it do for me to not get enough rest? What’s the purpose? This is a test. You are about to undergo a test.
Let us take hold of these questions and lift our eyes upward, “Ribbono Shel Olam. This is genuine yissurim (suffering) for me. Please may it be Your will that it serve as a kappara (atonement). I accept this sorrow with emuna and love. Better this than something else.”
What inner strength and emuna to reach this exalted level of seeing Hashem in my sleep disturbances. What a calming effect it will have on my nerves and potentially brewed anger. Ashreinu (happy is he!) for striving to ascend to this level of emuna and see Hashem in one of those places we have never done before!
